March 27, 2020
Oh my, does time fly! I was just thinking that I can distinctly remember the last entry I wrote, and it was over half a year ago! I want you to know that I have been baking and busy since then, filling orders, and blog baking. I’m having a really good time with that! It has been really interesting posting recipes that I try for the first time, and doing a pretty good job if I do say so myself;)
I had a show that was cancelled in late March, but it hasn’t slowed my creative juices one bit. Today is my son, Elijah’s birthday, and I baked him a peanut butter, chocolate ganache cake. I topped it with brownies, chocolate chip cookies, and M and M’s. I felt compelled to make this birthday a special one, since we are practising social distancing. It is very lonely and boring for the kids without their friends, and especially hard to celebrate birthdays without a crowd.
So, I did my best to put a party together with a special salmon dinner, complete with a cake and all the birthday decor! That’s how it goes, moms will do anything to see their babies smile! He was definitely beaming today. Here is a picture of the cake, and I’m pretty happy with the results!
September 24, 2019
Dear Cake Diary,
There are days when I am not in love with baking. If I am brutally honest, it tries me at times, and exposes my weaknesses and flaws without my consent. This is a love/hate relationship that I have going on, but I can say that it has been one of the main reasons for both my personal, and professional growth.
The other day, I made a cake for a client and had the strategy all set up for the execution. I was so positive that I would be able to create what I see in my head, but I found myself struggling at various steps that should have been a cinch. If you know me, you know that I worked that problem until I “saw double” in the kitchen that day. When it was finally finished and I stood back to admire it, I have to admit that it was not my best work.
How could it be that you could put so much time and effort into something, only to be so disappointed in the results? It made me so upset that I considered starting all over again to ease the anxiety of imperfection. The only problem was, there was not enough time. I found myself staring at the clock, then the cake, and then back to the clock again. This back and forth thinking had my stomach in knots until it was time to give up the cake.
I was a mess, and could not say one positive thing about any of the hard work I put into making this cake. I was thoroughly disappointed in myself and couldn’t figure out how to make it better. I have to say that it has been weeks since that ordeal, but there is some important life lessons I took away from that moment.
One: I decided that no matter what I put out there in life, I will always own it. There is something to be said about having faith in yourself no matter what the situation may be, making sure to keep your dignity. You are never allowed to abandon your confidence at the first signs of uncertainty because there is no one in this world who is as invested in who you are, more than you. After all, the key to the treasure of the most amazing part of who you are, lies with you.
Two: Make notes. This life we live is filled with our mistakes that we can never bring ourselves to look at. However, if we never look, how will we learn how to make them right?
Priceless information found in the shadows of our difficult days. Each day makes me a stronger and wiser woman, with a lot of room to grow.
October 15, 2018
Dear Cake Diary,
A cake is just a cake until you put the passion into it. I sit here reflecting on what drives me to prepare batter for the oven, draw out the baked goodness, and create a cake greater than the one before. If you ask me, it’s the love of the challenge, the jolt of excitement I feel when there is an idea, and being lost in the energy of my work.
Baking is my therapy. I put the stresses of life to work in the kitchen and watch it create. I guess you could say that it brings what is inside of me out, and it measures my growth and potential to be greater. It allows me to be me, and helps me own my mistakes and imperfections. Here, I can align what I do with who I am.
Powerful, right? However, it is not easy. There is a lot of second guessing, and the fear of leaping into the unknown. The path to success is not clear from where I’m standing, and there is no one to help you along the way. There are many bakers who have dreams that never come to pass, and I feel their disappointment.
What makes you a success? It can’t only be you’re love or dedication to the work, or else many others would be at center stage. I could only imagine that in life, everyone has their time to shine. It may not be the way you envisioned, and it might not be in your timing, but I have a feeling that when it’s your turn, all eyes will be on you.
So, at the end of the day, I am simply waiting on my moment.
September 7, 2018
Dear Cake Diary,
The common question that I get about my business is, “How did it all begin?” I proceed to tell the story of my son’s baby dedication. We had put together a grand party to celebrate and I wanted the perfect cake with the perfect theme. A friend of mine told me about her sister who does amazing cakes, so I thought I’d give her a try. She made a “Noah’s Ark” cake with cupcake animals surrounding it, which was phenomenal!
However, I studied it more in depth and was convinced I could do cakes too! A few years later, I had convinced myself to try my hand at fondant for the first time:
Can you believe the cake above was my first fondant cake ever??? I was convinced that I was right about talent, and I just kept taking challenge after challenge until I came up with cakes like these:
I’m looking back over the years of hard work, dedication, and perseverance and I realize how important it is to listen to the voice of reason inside of you no matter how ridiculous it sounds! Also, don’t be afraid to do big things, even if you feel like the shoes don’t fit. You would be surprised to know what you can do when you are fearless! Lastly, there are no excuses for why it can’t be done now. All it takes is one bold move in the right direction, and you are already living the dream!
I can’t wait to see where a few more years will take me in my baking journey, but I can tell you that so far it has been quite the ride!